The first diary/journal I kept was when I was 8. It had a lock on it, cause I didn’t want my brother getting into it. I can’t remember a time I didn’t write down my thoughts and feelings, whether pen to paper or electronically, I’ve always recorded my thoughts when I needed to. It helps me sort out how to work out situations or just to work through my emotions which I often times have a hard time expressing. I’m better now at expressing myself emotionally, but its still a work-in-progress.
So, I’ve been thinking about the different things I’d like to do now that I have the time to actually do them, be productive. Someone told me to plot out all the things I enjoy doing and it’ll reveal itself to me. I visualized it, almost like meditating (but not) and I figured out that I really like being creative, hence the writing. Its the right side of my brain taking over – my left handed tendencies haven’t completely vanished (my mom forced me to be right handed – so actually I use both sides of my brain – or at least I’d like to think so!). I don’t think I could make a career out of writing, and I don’t want to, but I could turn this passion into something part-time. I’d like to enroll myself in a course for creative writing, but because of my low tolerance for a controlled environment, I’m looking at alternatives to help me with my writing process.
Writing has always been a fun thing for me, a personal thing for me. And, if I could do something constructive with it that would be great. I’m in a state of flux right now, but I’m figuring it out. Its not always fun, but its been revealing.