This dessert was one of my favourite parts of my visit to the CNE…almost a month ago!!! Where did September go? Its been a crazy month, I’ve been sick for the last of it. And, not just with a cold. I had another bout with food poisoning, or maybe it was the stomach flu, on Friday. It was not pretty and I will not go into descriptive detail, to spare you all, but it was rough.
The terrible thing about being so ill on Friday is that my friend had planned a belated surprise for my birthday that night. I had an idea of what it was, a spa treatment, but wasn’t sure exactly what. Anyways, I left work pretty much a hour after I went in (half of that hour was spent in the bathroom), there was no way I could have made it through the day, and slept when I got home. I wasn’t sure I would be able to make it to my friend’s surprise and I felt so bad because I knew she would be dinged for the appointment. Thankfully, I felt better by the late afternoon and decided to go. I was feeling pretty frail, I had not eaten all day, and didn’t realize how frail I looked until my friend pointed out how pale I was when she saw me. She had never seen me like that before and I had never seen myself like that either. But, I guess when you’ve emptied your stomach numerous times, it shows. After a lovely facial though, I got my colour back.
Anyways, September was not as productive as I wanted it to be. I’m not behind, but I’m not as ahead as I’d like to be in the goals I’ve set. I have to repair this leak in my master bathroom. Its been leaking for a while (I hate to confess how long cause then you’ll all know how lazy I am) from the suite above me (thankfully into my bathtub), but I just haven’t put in a maintenance request to get it fixed. If I want to sell my place, I need to get it fixed. Moving is a pain in the ass, but now that I’m finally that much closer to what I really want to do, it’s worth all the inconvenience.
If l learned from anything that’s happened this year, doing and thinking are two very different things and I’d rather be inconvenienced and doing something than just thinking about it.
The weather was fabulous over the weekend. My friend and I took advantage of this great weather and decided to go on a short hike followed by shaded downtime in the park with a book. The ducks, as you see above, decided to join us as well.
Fresh air and a good walk always calms the nerves. I’ve been trying to get my friend to do things for herself, activities that will relax her since she’s been so stressed out by all the crap going on right now in her family. I’ve been really worried about her because she’s already had one meltdown in front of me and I certainly don’t want a repeat. So, I’ve been advocating that she absolutely needs to take time out for herself. I’m a firm believer that if you don’t take care of yourself then you’re no good to the people around you.
I’m guilty of it myself, taking on too much without thought to myself and how it’ll impact me. Its been a long process, but I’m learning to say “no” and not feeling guilty about it. There’s responsibility and then there’s living your life – blending the two are difficult, but finding the balance to them is important. You do what you can do, but don’t kill yourself in the process. I’m finding that balance, its hard to maintain, but I try my best and I know my friend will get there eventually.
For the past few months I’ve fallen off my exercise wagon. I had been going crazy at work (its finally somewhat quiet now although its picking up again) and my time outside of work has been consumed by this and that. When I get home I just wanna lay on my couch and remain still…or just fall asleep.
I finally decided that I needed to get off my ass. I’ve never been a fan of killing myself over exercise so I had been thinking of something to keep me fit but won’t kill me in the process. That’s why I liked the idea of Yoga…yeah, that didn’t work out so well, been there done that, my body is not that bendy…yet. I haven’t given up on Yoga, just taking a break.
So, then I remembered how much I enjoyed Tai Chi. A few years back, when I was still living in Vancouver, my dad gave me a tape. I was on this health kick and started Tai Chi along with my regular exercising. In the beginning I was laughing my ass off because, well, 1) the women on the tape spoke Cantonese, which I understand, but barely and 2) the movements were so slow I thought it would never end. I was a bit ignorant about Tai Chi, but once I started getting serious and figured out what the women was saying, I really got into it. Unfortunately, when I moved back to Toronto, I lost the tape and just kinda forgot about it (as you do when you’ve moved across the country again) and started doing other exercises.
Flash forward, I asked my dad for another copy, once I decided that I would give Tai Chi another whirl, and I’ve started it up again when I got the tape this week. Its been great, a perfect way for me to stay healthy and relaxed – not out of breath and ready to keel over. There’s this component of Tai Chi that is about your breathing and for some reason all the breath-in and breath-out’s that are being said on this tape in Cantonese, which once made me laugh and annoyed me a little, keeps me focused and calm. Oh, how I’ve matured 😉 .
Of course Tai Chi will not be my only way of exercising. I need to do cardio and strength training, but the Tai Chi will keep me focused. It feels good to kick start my exercise regimen again.
Posted in Health, Life, Ramblings
Tagged Buddhism, Exercise, Health, Life, Musings, Ramblings, Tai Chi, Thoughts, Zen
I haven’t been sleeping well, in fact, I haven’t slept well in many years. I use to sleep right through the night, but I don’t anymore. Sometimes I wonder if its because of my snoring? I don’t really want to go to a sleep clinic because all they ever want to do is loop you up with drugs. No thanks, I’m not big on taking drugs to cure all ailments.
So, I’ve been up since 6am, therefore my blogging. I had a particularly hard time sleeping last night. I’ve been reading before going to bed hoping that this relaxes me enough to sleep, but that hasn’t worked. And, no, I don’t do the milk thing before bed. Once I brush my teeth, no food shall pass. I’m a little anal that way. It’s not like I’ve had a lot on my mind, I mean I have a few things on my mind, but nothing that is stressing me out. Maybe worrisome, but not stressful.
Perhaps another reason could be my bed instead of the snoring. I’ve had the mattress for over 10 years now and I know you’re suppose to change the mattress within 10 years, so perhaps its time to go mattress shopping? The reason why I think it might be my bed is because when I sleep on a nice hotel mattress, like the one I recently slept on when I was in Chicago, I get a good nights sleep. But, I’m holding off on purchasing the mattress though because I’m not sure whether my living situation will be changing. Although, if I’m honest, its not really the reason, I’m just too damn lazy to go mattress shopping 😀 .
Well, I hope to make-up all this lost sleep on the weekend. I have plans, but thankfully it doesn’t involve me waking up early!
I was pretty busy at work yesterday. I was doing some manual labour at one of our warehouses. I was helping my boss out since she volunteered to liquidate some stuff for the company bosses.
So, this warehouse is a rather nice one, except for the fact that the floors are concrete. And, that’s a given in a warehouse, but that wrecks havoc on my back. Since I was doing manual labour, I was pretty much on my feet all day. After about 4 hours of hard work my hips started hurting. I knew they would, but I ignored the pain. But, by the end of 5 hours I was pretty cranky and was looking forward to getting back into the office.
I have a history of very bad back pain and I do not want a repetition of what happened to me a few years back when my back was out continiously for 6 weeks. That was so painful I was almost in tears from that. Anyways, I digress, so yeah, by the end of the day I was pretty sore and very cranky.
My poor friend, I went out last night with her and I was just bitching away. I apologized though, for my foul mood. I didn’t direct any of it at her, except when she called to confirm plans, I apologized of course. I’m cranky only when I’m super tired, super hunger and have back pain (for an extensive period of time). I used super quite a bit there didn’t I? Apologies for the lack of better words. But, I was trying to express that I have to be to the extreme before I’m cranky, otherwise I’m pretty mellow.
Last night was not my mellow day. But, today is a better day and its Friday! I’m having lunch with my best guy friend so that already puts me in a good mood. 😉
I was looking around my kitchen, thinking of ways to keep it clear/organized and make sure that most of whats in my cupboards and fridge is healthy. And, then I noticed all the damn chocolate I have in the fridge and some of it just laying around.
So, before you go “typical girl and her chocolate thing”, let me just state that I’m actually the complete opposite of that. I love salty things by nature and gravitate towards that more than sweet stuff (although, don’t get me started on cake). Why all the chocolate? It’s a rarity to see me eat a chocolate bar. But, there are very, very rare moments where I actually crave some chocolate and when I do, I do the stupid thing and buy a bunch of chocolate thinking I’ll crave it again and then I don’t. The chocolate sits in my fridge or on my counter or whatever for the longest time with me not touching it. Very bad habit.
Now, I’m left with the task of throwing it out (I’m not donating it, I don’t think it’s fresh and wouldn’t want anyone to get sick from it). Such a waste of food and I’m mad at myself for wasting it. I have a tendency to do things like that. I’ll have a craving for something, buy it, then never eat it again and it goes wasted. I’m trying very hard not to do that anymore. I’ve been getting better at it, but I realize I need to try a bit harder to be buying only what I’ll eat. Considering all the people out there who are starving and there I am wasting food, I feel it’s only right that I start being more responsible about the food I consume and how much I waste.
Posted in Food, Funny, Health, Home, Personal, Random
Tagged Food, Funny, Health, Home, Personal, Random
I use to be able to eat loads when I went to a buffet. Really, I could. In the olden days I could make about 4 – 5 trips for hot food before I even consider dessert. I was in heaven in a buffet. When I lived in Vancouver the first thing I noticed was that there weren’t many Chinese all-you-can-eat places. In fact, the rage there was all-you-can-eat Japanese food. Which, funny enough, is kinda lacking in Toronto.
Anyways, over the years my food consumption has changed. I don’t know if it’s age or that I truly am watching what I’m eating (which I doubt), but I can’t do all-you-can-eat like I use to and it’s sad. It was my parents 40th Wedding Anniversary today, yup they made it to the 40th mark, and they decided to go to a buffet to celebrate. I took barely 3 trips to the hot buffet and I had to call it a day. I didn’t even load up my plates like I normally do. And, I just could not stuff another morsel in my mouth and if I did then I was endangering the room, little room, that I had left for dessert. Sadness.
I wonder why I can’t consume the way I use to. Perhaps I need to be a bit more strategic the next time I hit a buffet. Starve myself and then gorge when I get there. I just feel like if I’m going to do buffet, I should eat epic proportions so that I get my worth. I know, I’m strange. 😀
Posted in Food, Funny, Health, Personal, Rant
Tagged Buffets, Chinese food, Food, Funny, Health, Personal, Rant, Wedding Anniversary