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CITY OF ROSES

I’ve been so lazy lately, haven’t accomplished anything with my condo.  I haven’t put up any photo’s, decorated (in any way), taken any bins down to my locker, nothing.  I just kinda stare at the mess that is my den right now.  I’m not sure why I’m in this state of…….um…….non-activity, but I am.  Actually, maybe I’m just still burnt out from all the purging, packing, purging, packing and more purging I went through to move……I’m not sure.  But, I am sure that I need to get out of this funk.

I came back recently from a trip to Portland, Oregon.  It’s probably one of my favourite cities in the U.S.  And, the tax-free shopping helps too.  I’ve been to Portland many times, but usually either went with someone or visiting someone who would take me around.  This time I was on my own, so I decided to do a walking tour, I wanted to do something different and I read some great reviews about these walking tours.  I went on an Epicurean walking tour, so basically I walked around downtown and the Pearl district and sampled food along the way.  It was a terrific tour and definitely worth the money spent.  I learned a lot more about the city then I already knew so that was good.

I didn’t do as much shopping as I had anticipated that I would, but since I’m not a big shopper to begin with, I wasn’t surprised.  I did get to see the Rose Garden, which was so pretty.  Everything was in bloom and I took a few photo’s (as you see above) and smelled a few roses.  I had not anticipated going up there, but glad to have gone because Portland is the “City of Roses” so how can I visit without even stepping foot into the Rose Garden?

It was good to get away it renewed my itch to travel.  Unfortunately, I don’t have a lot of vacation days leftover for the year (thanks to my move) so I need to spread them out.  I really enjoyed my time in Portland, so much so that I want to go back again!  Anyways, I’ll see how things go….I don’t like to plan too far ahead, I’d rather just be spontaneous.

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MOVING

I finally sold my condo!  Actually, its been sold for over a month now, but the whole process of getting it ready, cleaning my place, has not only been time-consuming, but tiring.  I remember now why I loathe moving so passionately, its exhaustive and draining.  After a lot of thinking, I decided not to rent, but to buy again.  It’s a bit of a kink in my plans, but it felt like the right thing to do.  Renting just didn’t seem right.

I have no idea right now where I’m moving to.  That’s been an interesting experience.  Unlike the States, the market is hot right now in Toronto so the pickings are slim.  I had put in an offer on a new place, meaning it hasn’t been registered with the city, but its built and getting occupied.  That turned into a bit of a fiasco if I don’t say so myself.  So, I’m putting in an offer on another place (at the same new building cause I haven’t completely learned my lesson) this week that will hopefully go a hell of a lot smoother than the last offer I put in.

My real estate agent is a pretty good guy, a little slow for my liking, but a good guy.  He’s a referral from a co-worker and so far he’s saved my ass….on the first offer I made that turned into a mess.  I have looked at about 30 – 40 places so far, maybe more I’ve lost count over the past two months.  Some of the places I’ve seen are spotless and then there were some I saw that were completely disgusting.  Only a handful have wowed me enough to consider putting in an offer.  And, even then, I have only put in one offer.

I haven’t even consulted movers yet because I’m not sure when I’m moving and where to.  Hopefully I’ll have that figured out this week because I’m starting to get antsy thinking I may have to stay with my parents for the interim.  That…would…not….be…..good.

Anyways, my life is consumed with this move and until I get it done and over with, I really can’t move forward.  And, I really need to move forward.  So, here’s to me starting fresh….somewhere…..soon.

THAT MUCH CLOSER

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This dessert was one of my favourite parts of my visit to the CNE…almost a month ago!!!  Where did September go?  Its been a crazy month, I’ve been sick for the last of it.  And, not just with a cold.  I had another bout with food poisoning, or maybe it was the stomach flu, on Friday.  It was not pretty and I will not go into descriptive detail, to spare you all, but it was rough. 

The terrible thing about being so ill on Friday is that my friend had planned a belated surprise for my birthday that night.  I had an idea of what it was, a spa treatment, but wasn’t sure exactly what.  Anyways, I left work pretty much a  hour after I went in (half of that hour was spent in the bathroom), there was no way I could have made it through the day, and slept when I got home.  I wasn’t sure I would be able to make it to my friend’s surprise and I felt so bad because I knew she would be dinged for the appointment.  Thankfully, I felt better by the late afternoon and decided to go.  I was feeling pretty frail, I had not eaten all day, and didn’t realize how frail I looked until my friend pointed out how pale I was when she saw me.  She had never seen me like that before and I had never seen myself like that either.  But, I guess when you’ve emptied your stomach numerous times, it shows.  After a lovely facial though, I got my colour back.

Anyways, September was not as productive as I wanted it to be.  I’m not behind, but I’m not as ahead as I’d like to be in the goals I’ve set.  I have to repair this leak in my master bathroom.  Its been leaking for a while (I hate to confess how long cause then you’ll all know how lazy I am) from the suite above me (thankfully into my bathtub), but I just haven’t put in a maintenance request to get it fixed.  If I want to sell my place, I need to get it fixed.  Moving is a pain in the ass, but now that I’m finally that much closer to what I really want to do, it’s worth all the inconvenience.

If  l learned from anything that’s happened this year, doing and thinking are two very different things and I’d rather be inconvenienced and doing something than just thinking about it.

FAMILY VISIT

Life has been busy.

Any down time is a rarity these days.  Those quiet moments that I try to do at night?  Non-existent because I’m so exhausted at night that I curl up in my bed and fall asleep, screw the cleansing and calming of my mind.  For now.

I think that’s why I’ve been writing less, and I’m not talking about this blog, I’m talking about my journal writing.  I’ve been missing it, yet cannot compel myself to put pen to paper.  My mind is just not focused right now.  And, I have a lot of things I need to sort out.  I need to get focused.  Soon.

I am looking forward to next week.  I have some random days off, meaning I have a couple of days off during the week but not in a row.  My cousin and her husband are driving up from South Carolina so I want to spend a day with her.  I originally was thinking of visiting her during the Civic day long weekend, funny enough, and I had a few other places that I was contemplating, but after some thinking (damn the thinking) decided to delay it.

My cousin comes into town every few years.  Generally, she comes to stuff her face with as much Chinese food as she can without exploding.  She also shops till she drops, stuffing her car with as many Asian delicacies as is possible to pack into her vehicle.  Its quite hilarious to watch.  I remember one year she came, I think it was about 15 years ago or so when Chinese food was rare in the South and she had packed her car with so much crap it was overflowing.  She even used “secret” compartments in the van she was driving at the time to hide her food from the Customs officer. She owns a Chinese restaurant so she buys the stuff half for the restaurant and half for herself.

It’ll be good to see her.  My nephews are excited to see her too, both for the first time, so I know there will be funny moments.  It should be lots of fun, and I need this break from the norm (i.e. craziness) right now, so its a welcome change.

INTOLERANCE

I’ve been at my new job for almost two months.  Its been the busiest two months of my life.  I have been in jobs where its busy, but nothing that I’m experiencing right now.  And, its good.  I quit one of my jobs because it was so damn boring and my brain was slowly losing its intelligence.  Anyways, now that I’m settling in a bit more I’m noticing the random characters around the workplace, in particular my boss.

She’s a nice enough person (before she starts the day), but she has got a mean streak that I’m just starting to really see.  She’s very dramatic, loud (she sings in the office), takes everything personally, complains a lot and generally a little kooky.  I don’t take offense to her craziness, but the one thing I don’t like is her intolerance for people she thinks aren’t going about things the way she thinks they should.  And let me tell you I’ve been witness to a few very inappropriate comments by her already because of her lack of patience with people.  A recent incident that involved me made it clear to me that its important I don’t involve her too much in what I do.  Otherwise, a situation I am clearly handling gets fucked up complicated (when it shouldn’t be) because she’s taken it too far.  And, I’m not the only one she’s done it to in our group.

I take it all in stride, but its not easy.  I try to ignore her when she goes completely nuts.  Her loud singing, I kid you not, can be annoying and long winded, but so far I haven’t had to resort to drowning her out by plugging in the iPod.  I believe she sings to relieve stress, it just hurts my ears.

Intolerance and impatience with other people, when its not warranted, highly irritate me because it shows a lack of respect.  I can deal with her bitching (and it can be constant), but her intolerance, that’s another thing and it’ll be harder for me to keep my cool about that.  Its not unpleasant to go to work, because I enjoy my job, its a good company, and I’m certainly not going to let it bother me unless it becomes completely inappropriate, but I need to tread carefully. 

I’m counting down the days, months, weeks, hours, seconds when I can kick this full time gig to the curb.

BOOKS, BOOKS, BOOKS!

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Lately, I haven’t had the time to read.  But, this past weekend I snuggled into my couch and opened up a book I’ve been trying to read for the past 2 months.  Its called “Hitching Rides with Buddha” (non-fiction) by Will Ferguson, a Canadian author who writes travel books.  My sister-in-law loves him, and I loaned the book to her to read before I started to read it.  The book is basically about his journey from one end of Japan to the other following Japan’s Cherry Blossom front.  It has its funny moments and I’m starting to, finally, get into a groove with this book.

In the past few years I’ve been reading books on real-life experiences – basically non-fiction.  My favourite so far is “Eat, Pray, Love” by Elizabeth Gilbert.  I read the book last year before I left for my volunteer trip to the Dominican.  I finished the book while I was there, which was fitting because of the journey Elizabeth Gilbert took in this book and the effect this trip had on me when I came back.  I just purchased another copy of the book because I gave the copy I had to a friend who wanted to re-read it.  I also got another book of hers while I was surfing Amazon, “Last American Man”.  I can’t wait to read it.  Obviously, I’ll have to finish my current read first.

One book that I haven’t been able to finish is a biography about Che Guevara.  I started it about a year ago, its a fairly large book, but I’m hoping to finish it eventually, in between reading other books.  Its a comprehensive look at Che’s life and his background, so although interesting, it requires me to really focus when I’m reading it.  So, I have to be in a certain head space when I pick that book up.  I think it’ll be awhile before I finish this book, but I do plan to finish reading it.

Call me the book fiend.  Books are a great escape from life’s dramas – if only for a moment.

BLOGGING

I’ve been blogging for a long time.  I was thinking about this last week.  I started blogging on Xanga back in 2001.  I don’t remember how I found the site.  But, I do remember why I started blogging.  Blogging has always been a great outlet for me to express how I feel.  Lately though, its been harder for me to blog because everything I’m going through right now is too personal to blog about in such a public forum.

I’ve met some very interesting and nice people from blogging.  Some I keep in contact with, some I’ve lost touch with and some I will probably never speak to again.  I got to thinking about all this because I still log into my Xanga account periodically to see if the people I use to read on a daily basis still write.  One or two of them still do but the majority of them have stopped blogging.  But, the last time I logged in I got a message from one of my favourite reads from back then.  He started a new blog and wanted to let me know his new website address.

I was glad to know he was still blogging, as he had stopped for awhile, because I always enjoyed reading his old blog.  He has this great writing style and no spelling mistakes, my biggest pet peeve.  When I met up with him a few years ago when I was still living in Vancouver and he was living in Seattle, I could understand why I liked his blog.  He was warm (he gave me a big hug when we met!), very intelligent, funny guy with a serious streak who was really thoughtful.  I think that’s why I liked his blogging, his personality was brought out in his writing style.  A lot of people don’t write the way they talk or convey their true selves in their blogging, but he was not one of them.

Anyways, his current blog is the same way.  Warm, funny and interspersed with video’s and great music picks.  I don’t read a lot of blogs, because who has the time, but his will be one that I try to read as regularly as I can.