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INTOLERANCE

I’ve been at my new job for almost two months.  Its been the busiest two months of my life.  I have been in jobs where its busy, but nothing that I’m experiencing right now.  And, its good.  I quit one of my jobs because it was so damn boring and my brain was slowly losing its intelligence.  Anyways, now that I’m settling in a bit more I’m noticing the random characters around the workplace, in particular my boss.

She’s a nice enough person (before she starts the day), but she has got a mean streak that I’m just starting to really see.  She’s very dramatic, loud (she sings in the office), takes everything personally, complains a lot and generally a little kooky.  I don’t take offense to her craziness, but the one thing I don’t like is her intolerance for people she thinks aren’t going about things the way she thinks they should.  And let me tell you I’ve been witness to a few very inappropriate comments by her already because of her lack of patience with people.  A recent incident that involved me made it clear to me that its important I don’t involve her too much in what I do.  Otherwise, a situation I am clearly handling gets fucked up complicated (when it shouldn’t be) because she’s taken it too far.  And, I’m not the only one she’s done it to in our group.

I take it all in stride, but its not easy.  I try to ignore her when she goes completely nuts.  Her loud singing, I kid you not, can be annoying and long winded, but so far I haven’t had to resort to drowning her out by plugging in the iPod.  I believe she sings to relieve stress, it just hurts my ears.

Intolerance and impatience with other people, when its not warranted, highly irritate me because it shows a lack of respect.  I can deal with her bitching (and it can be constant), but her intolerance, that’s another thing and it’ll be harder for me to keep my cool about that.  Its not unpleasant to go to work, because I enjoy my job, its a good company, and I’m certainly not going to let it bother me unless it becomes completely inappropriate, but I need to tread carefully. 

I’m counting down the days, months, weeks, hours, seconds when I can kick this full time gig to the curb.

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MUSINGS

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Scattered musings of a tired mind:
So, I’ve been at the new job for 2 weeks now.  I can’t believe I’ve been back from Vancouver for almost two weeks.  Anyways, the job is good, the company is actually really great, which was a pleasant surprise.  But, its still just a job, not a career.  I got to say its been an adjustment losing all that free time.  And then the stupid clocks went forward an hour this week, totally whacking me out.  They say women have the worse time adjusting to the time change.  I hate that they say that, but its been true for me.

Then to top it off, I’m fighting a cold which has left me with an annoying cough.  Oh, woe is me….just kidding.  There are worse things in life, I know.  And, so, I’m totally looking forward to the weekend.  My friend and I are taking our friend, the one with post-partum depression, to a spa for the day.  Our early, early birthday present to her.  We’re going to a spa about an hour northeast of Toronto.  I’m looking forward to it, feel like some pampering is in order.  I’m only getting a manicure, cause everything else at this spa is incredibly pricey, but it’ll be good, I’ve always like getting my hands massaged.  I don’t care about the actual manicure, just the massage!

Recently, I’ve been trying to get focused on my goals.  When I was off work I started compiling these lists of things I liked doing (to figure out what I was good at), and then lately I started to put together a list of things I want to do in the next 2 years.  And, being the crazyass, unpredictable person I can be, I realized that I needed to organize all my thoughts of all the things I wanted to do to get me focused.  I have a tendency to be a fly-by-the-seat-of-your-pants person, which works for me, but I’m also realizing that I’m giving myself not a lot of time to accomplish what I want to – so I must focus.  Anyways, I’m trying to tick off a few of them for this year – learn Mandarin, try Hot Yoga, keep up with my Spanish, Treetop Trek are some things on the list.  Of course I have a travel list of places I want to see and I definitely plan on ticking off one this year.

First though….need to get rid of this damn, freakin cold.  I’m going to bed now.

THE JOB HUNT

The Job Hunt – one of my least favourite things to do.  I’ve been at it for almost 2 months, more aggressively since the new year and for awhile there it seemed so futile.  It was a bit disheartening, but I kept going at it.

Finally, its paying off and the past couple of days I’ve been getting requests for interviews.  Now, the challenge is keeping track of all the jobs I’ve applied for and not to mix them up.  I’ve been pretty good at keeping the job descriptions and emails I’ve been sending and making sure not to forget to keep them.  And, as I keep building the number of positions I apply for, the challenge is to keep it organized.  My goal is to apply for a job a day or more so I’m going to be accumulating many job descriptions before I actually land a job offer.

My other least favourite thing?  Researching these companies once I get the interview and retaining what I learn about them.  This is my weak point, regurgitating what I remember about what these companies do.  Most of the time I make shit up and the employer can tell, but I’m determined I will get better!!! (at least I hope so?!).

Anyways, I have an interview today and a couple next week.  I’m trying not to get too worked up over these interviews.  I’m not comfortable “selling” myself.  I’d rather gouge my eyes out sometimes then go through these interviews.  It really is that painful to me at times.  But, I know its a necessary evil and I do it.

I’m trying not to tell anyone about these interviews, the less they know the better.  I won’t get bombarded with questions about how it went or have someone coach me on how to do the interview.  It just makes me more nervous.

A 9-5 is not exactly my dream situation, but in order for me to get to where I want to be, I need to do this for now.  Not forever, just a little longer before freedom reigns…LOL.

I guess I better put on that power suit and get ready.  Wish me luck!

LET’S TRY THIS AGAIN

Change is always good – sometimes challenging, but good.  There are people who hate change and then there’s me, I like change, it can be scary, it can be life altering or it can just simply put some kinks into your plans.  So, I have a lot of time on my hands now.  Its been a long time since I’ve had some free time. 

At the beginning of last week, my company laid off over 80 people, which included me and many of my immediate co-workers.  Honestly, before you all start feeling sorry for me, please don’t, because its all for the better.  I knew it was coming, it was obvious for the past couple of months.  I just didn’t know when it was coming.  And, frankly, I wasn’t really concerned.  You can’t control everything – so you just hope for the best.

The economy certainly had something to do with it, because the business relied heavily on the U.S., but mostly the company was poorly managed.  Anyone with half a brain could see that.  When you’ve poorly managed a company for 25 odd years, it starts to show.  Anyways, I’m not going to go into any detail about it cause it doesn’t matter now.  All that matters, to me, is that I’m ok and I’m grateful to have some free time now.  There are a few things I’ve been wanting to get to and now I can. 

The added bonus of all this is that with Christmas coming up I can ease into it rather than be stressed about baking, cooking and entertaining.  I’ve got some resumes out there, but I’m not really going to start pounding the pavement till after the new year.  I know there are people who think its in poor taste to lay someone off just before the holidays, but I don’t see it that way.  I’ve been given an opportunity to enjoy the holiday season and I’m going to do just that.

And, maybe this is my time to seize some opportunities and take some leaps of faith.  They say things happen for a reason and I tend to believe that.

LIFE RAMBLINGS

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I can’t believe that its already November.  I got my first Christmas party invite.  My best guy is having his annual party in a few weeks time.  I’m looking forward to it.  I haven’t seen the boy in ages.  We’ve both been so busy.  Him especially since he got a promotion.  He offered me a job, but I turned him down.  It wasn’t enough money and I wasn’t willing to commute downtown again for less cash.  It would have been fun to work with him again, but it wasn’t meant to be this time around.

Speaking of jobs, work has been super tense lately.  Over the past few weeks there have been a number of layoffs and reduction of hours for a number of employees.  I feel bad, but I’m not worried about my job.  Its not that I think I’m indispensable, I’m just not worried about it.  My co-worker is pretty worried.  He was telling me how badly the company is doing, which I knew already, but he knows it best because he’s the analyst.  It will be interesting to see what happens in the next month.

I had a feel old moment today.  One of the girls in marketing came over and we got into a conversation about the weekend.  She mentioned she was going to a party at Queen’s university – she wanted to have fun and hook-up with some future doctors and lawyers, which Queen’s is filled with.  I laughed and told her to pick me up one, then remembered that most of these guys were about 10 – 15 years younger than me.  She was like “oh, come on its fine, I’ll find you a lawyer!!”.  I laughed…of course we were just joking, but it made me feel old thinking how young this party crowd would be.  I am certainly way past the partying age, I did my damage way back when, so for a few seconds I had my feeling old moment, but honestly I’m quite happy to be beyond all the body slamming, head banging, drinking, dancing till dawn and bad pick-up lines of my younger years.

And, honestly, who would want to see me head bang anyone, right?  😀

RANDOM THOUGHTS

Work went from being insanely busy to…well, not so busy.  I’m fiddling my thumbs a bit, and worrying that I must be missing something.  I do have some things happening in November, but right now it’s far away enough that its not keeping me busy.  Although when November hits, I’ll be insanely busy because the schedule for January and February is…well, in one word “crazyass”.

My friend and I were going to Treetop Trek this weekend.  Unfortunately, the weather is not cooperating with us, which on the one hand gives me relief and on the other I’m a bit disappointed that I’ll have to wait till next year to do it.  The treetop trekking goes out pretty much all year round, but I am not trekking no trees when its freaking cold.  My friend’s schedule and my schedule kept conflicting that’s why it took us so long to pick a date to do it.  My friend suggested we go hiking, but I reminded her its going to rain this weekend and thats the reason why we’re not trekking (not that rain is the biggest deterrant – but its colder up north so it may turn to snow) – sometimes I wonder about her – but I understand she wants to do something active this weekend.  So, we’ll see.

The fall colours are fading fast.  I’m a bit sad that they didn’t stay for too long.  But, its been getting cold quick.  Like the other day it was snowing here!  It was wet snow and it didn’t stick, but hell, its only October what the hell is snow doing in Toronto at this time?  Anyways, since I’m going up north possibly this weekend, hopefully there are still fall colours to be seen.  I’ll have to bring my camera and take some pictures.

This really is a random thought kinda post today.  Its been that kind of week.  As usual, can’t wait for the weekend to get here already.  😉

IS IT WORTH IT?

Work has been insanely busy lately.  My desk at work looks like a bomb went through it.  I rather be busy than brain dead though, that’s why I left my last job.

There’s a lot of negativity at work, whining and complaining.  We’ve recently had some upheaval at work with management so its been worse than usual.  I have a low tolerance for complainers and my friends often ask me why I’m so dismissive when they complain.  Its not that I want to be surrounded by rainbows and butterflies, trust me I’m not that kind of person, but when I hear people complain, I want to shout at them and say ‘so what are you gonna do about it?’.

I think that’s why I’ve changed jobs so much over the past 3 years.  But, I’ve finally settle down somewhere where I enjoy what I do.  Its not perfect, but I’m not looking for perfection.  And the work politics?  I always say, no matter where you go its going to be there so I don’t get too bothered by it.  I don’t have high hopes of climbing some corporate ladder.  I have better plans for my life that don’t include being caught up with work.

I have my frustrations and annoyances, don’t get me wrong.  There are moments where I’d like to drop kick a few people at work, but at the end of the day I know it really doesn’t matter because my life is more than work.  So, when this girl who sits in my area told me that I’m not as vocal as the last person who did my job, I just look at her and say ‘I pick my moments and getting worked up is not worth it to me’.  I don’t think being aggressive and loud is the way to get people to help me.  Cause when I do make a point, people stand up and listen.

And, on that note:  Happy Thanksgiving to my fellow Canadians!